wateva e future may hold for us
my love for u will keep on goin strong
its a love dat deepens with each passin day
its a love dat will neva fade away
Forever and a day..

first day.
plain.simple.ordinary

first of all, happy 2004 to all. even tho' its already the 2nd day of 2004, its still not too late to wish u all, right? haii.. for the past 3 days i didn't even bother too blog. for one thing, my sis has been hoggin the com.

today was the first day of school. how was it? okayy lahh.. or should i say that it sucked? dunno laa. first day of school, and im already havin CA. GP essay. greatt. i was half-asleep while writin and i bet its the worse essay i ever done. *flashback*.. in the mornin.. gave Bi a missed call to wake him up, den msg him and wished him gd mornin. then he called, talked for a couple of minutes, then he had to go. all the SLs hafta reach sch at 6.45 for the orientation thingy. and theennn, i went back to sleeep.. till my mom's voice woke me up. ard 5.45. woke up, then bathe. and wore the new sch uni. and thats when everythin became sucky. the blouse was too big. i was frettin over it all the way. i kept askin my mom, dad and bibik whether it was big. they keep sayin "no lahh... u want to wear tight tight one for what?" lemme tell u.. the blouse is sooo not close to bein tight. i should have bought size 14. haii. msged Bi to tell him that my break's not at 9.30, but its at 11 cos my paper starts at 9.30. then.. i just sat down at the dinin table and stoned. all the way till 7 am. time to go to school. alone. usually i'll go to school with Bi but since he has to be in school early, today i went alone. feels different. met Farhani in the bus, and we were complainin abt how ugly our new uni was. hahaha.

reached school. first few people i saw was rosne, nuraini, shikin, sangee and banu. i looked for Bi but couldn't find him anywhere. then Dib came, then Irah came. she gave me the OBS pics (yay!). then we had to go for flag-raisin.thats when i saw the whole mass of greens. its soo weird lookin at such a diff colour. last year it was greys with a tinge of pink here and there. then we went to our new class. i have a proper classroom now. no more AVA, no more air-con. sighs.. and 03S6 is no more. we've become 03S5 with an addition of new people. feels different.

my new home tutor is Mr Pillai. so for the rest of the mornin, he just went on abt his expectations, school stuff and all that but noone was really payin attention, i guess. oh.. how could i forget! there's the whole bunch of 3 months students. heard that there's 1024 of them. imagine how packed the hall was. so.. anyways, when all of them started leavin the hall, i kept lookin out of the window just to get a glance of Bi. i saw him. he was walkin next to Mr Toh. i thought he saw me too cos he was lookin towards my classrm direction. so i waved at him, but he didn't wave back. okayy.. so maybe he didn't see me after all. so that was the last i saw of him. for the whole dayy. he didn't reply the msg that i sent him in the mornin. i just miss him so much now.

anyways, when school ended, i met Ain. i asked her where Bi was and she told me they already left for friday prayers. so no hope of seein him after all. i bought a new blouse, size 14. couldn't stand the big one. then Dib and me went home. actually i was supposed to meet my sis at town. we planned to watch Mona Lisa Smile but since i used all my money for the blouse, i went home to take money. when i reached home, i totally didn't have the mood to go out again. so now, im at home! i dont regret not goin out anyways. hahah.

hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. gonna take my c maths paper tmr. have not studied. guess im gonna study soon.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
2:50 p.m. | 02 January, 2004

love | him