wateva e future may hold for us
my love for u will keep on goin strong
its a love dat deepens with each passin day
its a love dat will neva fade away
Forever and a day..

closed ya.
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this blogg is temp closed!!

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:14 a.m. | 07 September, 2004

enola
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yup, bibik has finally went back. im not sure when's the next time im gonna see her. teared alot in the car and at the airport. its at this point of time that i feel such a great sense of loss. its like, somethin that i treasure alot is bein taken away frm me. and its also at this point of time i realised that the person i thought was the best to talk and confide in isn't the one i thought at all. sighs. shouldn't elaborate further. dun feel lyke it//

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
7:53 p.m. | 28 March, 2004

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bibik's goin back tmr. and this time. its for real. she's not comin back. sighs. i cant believe it. even till now, the fact that she's leavin and not comin back hasn't really sink well into my head yet. i mean, i've seen her, practically everyday for the past 7 ++ years. she's like the best bibik that i ever had. 'cos in the 1st place, she's just like an older sis to me. i talk to her abt basically anythin and everythin. she listens to my probs and gives me advices. and if it wasn't for her, i wouldn't have discovered lots of things in the world. she played a crucial role in my life. especially when i was growin up and out to discover the cold and hard reality of this world. and now.. she's leavin. sighs. i can just cry now but each time i feel like cryin, i'll remember my mom's words. she said we shouldn't be selfish. bibik cant possibly stay with us for the rest of her life. people come and go. i guess thats another cold, hard fact.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
11:28 p.m. | 27 March, 2004

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will pretty much just stay at home the whole day today since im havin maths tuition at 2. yest me and Bi kinda fought abt the sc thingy agen. just becos i asked him a few qns, he said i was provokin him. i didn't know i was that irritatin. anyways, everythin's fine now. i just try my best to remain calm when he gets angry or pissed. hmmss.. he's off to johor with his family now. its time he spent time with them. been busy the whole week. i bet besides me, his own family misses him too. yups. i feel like cuttin my hair tmr. im kinda bored and sick and tired of my hair. feels like its so.. hmm. dead? yea. i want curls. yups. like u noe.. those wavy wavy ends. yeaa. kayss. tuition in an hour's time. will watch tv for now. prolly update later.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
12:18 p.m. | 20 March, 2004

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okkays, im goin out with da sibs later. to watch Haunted Mansion. haiz. the thought of just stayin at home.. i dunno laa. hafta keep myself occupied. so i wont think of Bi so much. he told me himself that i shouldn't think of him so much. which is close to impossible. anyways, kinda true. cos that will make me feel even much more miserable than i already am. sighs. gonna bathe now.

continued..

back frm town. hmm.. haunted mansion was okay. its like, both funny and scary. its seldom u get to see movies like dat nowadays. yups.

why do ppl like to bump back on trains? i think thats like the stupidest thing to do cos its such a waste of time. like, totally. sometimes.. haiz. dunno laa. whatever. its also a waste of time to think about all these shit. so what if i seem to feel that im alone in this world. i still have my fam. my sibs. my sis. whatever it is, i guess i still can survive somehow. yups. i can.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:33 a.m. | 19 March, 2004

this lovee.
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mornin to ya'all. today's not really a gloomy mornin since i'll be goin to sch to help with e preparations for the cca open house. yup, im psyched. at least i wont be coopin at home the whole day. the other great thing is, i'll be able to see Bi. after 3 long days. yups. well, hopefully i'll do get to see him. he has physics lect at 12. sighs. met up with noi yest. talked abt each other's probs. its been such a long time since we met. wished mich and jess were there. i miss the 4 of us bein together. its been a long time.

recently i've received some stuff frm overseas university. there's one from spain. it looks kinda temptin to go. kinda a waste to take the sats cos we wont be needin it for admission to the uni now, but i guess its still equally impt cos some overseas universities are still lookin at sat results. i was thinkin, lets say if i dont make it thru for the a's, prolly i'll go overseas and take up mass com. actually there's so many choices, i cant really make up my mind in which path to take. i wanna be a journalist but then, there's always this idea of helpin my dad in his business. i mean, he has somewhat drilled it inside me dat when i grow up, i'll have to help him in his business. i dun mind.. but, i dont think i would want to have anythin to do with chemistry after a's. before this, i used to think chem is an interestin subject, but now, it seemed kinda dead to me. and the fact that i totally sucked in that subject. sighs.. will just leave it after the a's then i will think abt it agen. gotta get goin. havent even pack my stuff yet. prolly update later. hmm.. see how ya.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
10:31 a.m. | 17 March, 2004

gloomy.
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such a gloomy mornin. right now, i am basically alone at home. well, actually dere's bibik but she's away chattin on da fone. so, im pretty much alone. adam's off to genting for 3 days since yest. eqah's off to sch and after that she'll be hangin out at town. arghssss. why do i feel like as if everyone here has a life except fer me?!!?! aint fair.. hope it wont rain the whole day. my day is already gloomy as it can be. sighs..

gonna do my hmwrk later. finish up my chem prac skill D. and that marks the end of my hmwrk. yes, i'll be finishin my hmwrk by today. miracle aint it. i wish i had more stuff to do.. places to go to. sighs.. can life get any better than this? have been tastin blood since yest. beginnin to get used to it. i wanna change my layout a lil' but i need the codes frm my sis. she changed her password. arghsss. and she's not replyin my msg. most prolly she's still havin classes. sighs. i tink i'll update agen later.

continued at 1211 hrs

somebody saaaveeee meeee. im rottin in here. bibik kept laughin at me cos i have nowhere to go, nothin do. i've finished my chem, started on my maths assg. i've finished my hmwrk. what else can i do? revision. bah. tv? borin. sighs. i wish the house didnt have to be so empty. it only make things worse than it already is. Bi's busy for this wholeee week. with sc stuff and all. yea.. so im not seein him much. and sadly, we dont talk much either. even if he calls, he'll be sleepin on the fone. sighs.. sometimes, i wonder who's more tired. me listenin to him sleepin or him, just sleepin. sadly, when school reopens, its not goin to get any better either cos he's gonna be so busy yet, with all the sc stuff agen. and i'll be pretty much leadin my own life. i guess these are the challenges. i hope i'll be able to get thru' this. no. i hope the both of us will be able to get thru' this. sighs..

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
9:15 a.m. | 16 March, 2004

Chance or Choice
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i got this frm Cheryl's blog. i think its smth worth readin. (:

Chance or Choice

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance. When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen. I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
5:47 p.m. | 15 March, 2004

after so many years... riiightt.
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ahhh.. freeeaaak. haf already almost finished writin an entry when my com just went bonkers and hanged. damn. and everythin's gone. neways.. i was sayin abt what i've been up to nowadays. which is nothin much. well, had major pms for the past 2 weeks. hafta say sorry to Bi cos he was the victim. sighs. ohs. and i've gotten my common tests results a long time ago, actually. did badly. only got 2 AO's. i didnt even get an A for my maths. the only A subject which i supposedly can depend on. sighs.. told my dad dat i badly need tuition for chem. and maths. he found it. kinda fast. will be havin chem tuition this thurs and maths this sat. woohoo. im psyched. oh well..

its the sch hols and i dun really feel like as if its one cos i'll be stayin at home pretty much the whole week cos i just had a minor op. extracted my wisdom tooth. 2 of 'em. they're gone.. gonee.. goneee for goood. =) kinda freaked out b4 the op cos i thought its gonna be damn pain. the injections and stuff. i had a bad experience with tooth extraction when i was puttin on my braces last time. but surprisingly, this time the whole process was kinda painless. thanks to new technology i guess. but now my lower lip and cheeks feel really numb. and swollen. i feel like as if i look like a puffer fish but when i look at the mirror, its not even dat swollen. it only feels swollen. oh well. will be eatin porridge for 1 whole week frm now. =/

i miss Bi loads and loads. didnt talk to him that much yest. he kept fallin asleep. too tired. kinda understandable. (i dun think there's such a word but, heck.)

wokays.. haf nothin much else to update. hmm.. check out the new pic. ;) hahahaha. cant help laughin at the pic when i see him smiling like that. geee. not sure when will be my next update. sorry guys.. sometimes, my fingers are just plain lazy to type. either that or there's nothin much to say. heee. till then. take care ppls!!

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
4:45 p.m. | 15 March, 2004

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i am such a hopeless freak. i dun want to update my blog anymore. oh well. been really really really lazy to even touch the com even. hahahs. that bad huh. maybe becos dere's nothin much goin on in my life. i dunno.. hmms. yest was the release of the 'o' level results. my cousin's results ain't satisfyin at all. ): he's goin to Shatec. heyy.. and dats near my sch. maybbe we'll like bump into each other or what. hahahs. man.. i've not seen him for sucha long time. he's always skippin madrasa. and dats like the only time dat i get to see him.

lalala.. can u believe that tmr's the last day of Feb. and monday is gonna be 1st of march. and my 8th month with Bi is gonna be on sunday. gosh.. time passes so fast. i feel like it was only yest dat we spent our 7th month togetha. as what i always mention- time passes really fast. (: kays. gonna go out with me mom soon. usual grocery shoppin. oh yea. check out Clay Aiken's-The Way.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
11:25 a.m. | 28 February, 2004

nissim mih.
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thought that i would blog proper today. its been a while. (: neways.. had chem SPA in the mornin, it was okay lah. for the first time i wasn't that totally clueless on how too do the calculations. hiaks hiaks..

sighs.. today Bi went to KL with his family. no more late nite talkings. ahh.. sighs. he's not gonna be back till monday night. so yea.. im gonna miss him loads. anyways, Fil, Dib and Ros came over just now. had fun takin pics and stuff. muahaha.. actually im s'posed to be at mizi's place cos his parents just came back frm haji, but my mom said i can dont come if i want dun wan to.

hmm.. guess im just gonna finish up my hmwrk. haf lots of 'em. not sure of what else to blog. im always like that nowadays yea. gee. later peeps~

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
6:12 p.m. | 21 February, 2004

wee~
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finally.. im bloggin. been busy this past few days cos of the shiftin and all. all's well now i guess. tryin to get used to the new house. hmm.. dun really feel like bloggin much today. purpose of me bloggin now is to tell u ppl dat my blog's still aliveee. its been dead this past few days or weeks, dunch u tink so? hiaks hiaks.. k lah. till then. nytess peepss!

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:49 p.m. | 19 February, 2004

there's gotta be more to life.. than just this.
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its been a while since i blog. hmm.. whats up with me nowadays. nothin much. today's my 7th month anniversary with bi. (: so fast huh. yesterday was the pre-u 2 fun day. okay, it was fun at some points of time. but other than that, sighs. my class sucked. and so does my home tutor. Mr Pillai is such a drag. really. he is sooo un-cooperative. but despite all that, i still tried to make myself happy and go through the rest of the day. then we also learnt the MI dance. its okay lah. but i still prefer the kokomo dance. me and Bi were dancin at the back of the hall. Ms Chan was there and she kept smilin at us. then Ms Lim took a pic of us. she's always takin pics of us the whole day. sheesh.. i was tellin Bi that before we graduate, we must ask her for all the pics that she's taken of us since pre-u 1 to pre-u 3. hahaha.

im shiftin house this sunday. not tmr. ahhh.. so fast. and guess what. i still havent pack my stuff. my parents are busy packin but im still lazing around. hiaks hiaks.. dunno laa. i'll do that soon. i hope. hmms. mabbe when my mom really starts to scream at me to do so. (: oh.. i only have 1 week to study for my common test. ahhs. everythin just happens so fast. and i really mean everything. and i really mean fast too. !!!!! really stressed lah. sometimes i really wanna go off for some holiday to de-stress myself but hahahaa... thats like such an impossible thing to do at this point of time. oh well.

oh yea. actually i took some pics of the pre-u 2 fun day. but i dun haf the time and too lazy to upload the pics to my com. mabbe later ya. im goin out with my family soon. sighs, till then. i'll blog later if eqah's not usin the com. byee..

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
3:45 p.m. | 07 February, 2004

piccies
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See what Rugrat you are.

hmm.. this is soo not true. gee.

yesterday was hari raya haji. sorry didnt wish u guys earlier. hee. didnt haf time to blog. anyways, the OBS gatherin the other day was okayy. quite borin at some pts of time, but otherwise, i guess it okay lah. the food not bad tho. here are some of the pics.

thats me, irah and nadrah. we're all frm MI. oh, and irah's my watchmate too. (:

me, irah, yong shen, dan (my instructor) and shun yuan. dan looks abit gayish ya. hiaks hiaks.

and now.. yesterday's stuffs..

adam with his stupid slippers. gee.

my sis, bro and iis. look at eqah's face. waddahell?!

i dunno whyy but i just absolutely lurveee this pic. i lurvee my bro's pose with the chopsticks and spaghetti mee and all.

and lastly.. the sibs! (:

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
9:50 a.m. | 02 February, 2004

lalalaaa
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today was an okayy day. minus the mornin. im so totally gonna flunk my maths. its like, i sudden mind-block or smth like that. i even almost forgot how to calculate the scalar product. gee. and then just now i had trg. was fun. Ms Tan wasn't there. seemed that she went for a meeting. good lahh.

and then thats when she broke the bad news. i haf trg on wed!! and Bi has a rugby match on that day. told him i'd go. i was prayin that my trg would be on tues or what. but the team 1's trg on tues. sighs. and guess what. Ms Tan wants some of the team 2 girls to come for the tues trg also. dunno got what game on sat and she said we have to equalise with the no. of ppl playin. dunno what lah. all i noe is that i probably wont get to see the match in time.

tmr the 905 course ppl are havin an OBS gatherin at east coast. it'll be like relivin the times of OBS again. hmm.. well, hope i'll have fun. (:

Stacie Oricco-I Promise

Will I always be there for you

When you need someone

Will I be that one you need

Will I do all my best to

To protect you

When the tears get near your eyes

Will I be the one that's by your side

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night

Will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life

I promise, I promise

I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you

Take your darkest night

And make it bright for you

Will I be there to make you strong

And to lean on

When this world has turned so cold

Will I be the one that's there to hold

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night

Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life

I promise, I promise

I promise, I promise

I promise I will, yeah

And I love you more every day

And nothing will take that love away

When you need someone

I'll promise I'll be there for you

There for you

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night

Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life

I promise, I promise

I promise I will, yeah

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
7:10 p.m. | 30 January, 2004

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waitin for Bi to call now, so i thought i might as well blog. anyways, trg just now was tough. we had physical conditionin in the hall. ahh.. torture. oh well. and i have 2 periods of PE tmr somemore. FIRST 2 periods actually. sighs. yeh.. i can survive.

anyways, the netball girls are organisin this Captain's Ball Carnival for the Pre-U 1s girls. the thing is gonna be on 13th feb, eve of v-day. hahaha. thats like in 2 weeks time. gonna be busy. and then there's the pre-u 2 fun day on 6th feb, and my class still havent come up with a performance. and then there's still the total defence thingy. each class have to dress one person up as something that symbolises TD. gawd.. dunno how my class is gonna come up with a performance in just a week. gee..

this Sat there's gonna be a 905 outin at East Coast. woohoo~ gonna see the OBS ppl again. wonder how everyone's like now. btw, i just met Choon at citylink mall last sun. looks like a model. oh well.

anyways just now, me, Deb, Amanda and Ms Tan was discussin abt the carnival thingy. and then Ms Tan was askin up to come up with ideas for door gifts, and then someone (i forgot who) came up with the idea of givin heart-shaped sweets. and then she asked me whether we know where to buy it. then i told her that i've never even seen it or ate it before. and she was like so shocked. hahaha. but really, i've never seen heart-shaped sweets before. only chocolates. and then she said she's gonna scold Afiq 'cos he never give me any heart-shaped sweets. erh.. gee. then i just laughed. and then.. when we went out of the PE department, Bi was outside with some of the SLs discussin smth. then Ms Tan saw him and told him that i've never eaten heart-shaped sweets before and she told him to get me a pink one for v-day. hahahaa.

okayy. Bi just called. gtg now. nytes peeps!

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
9:23 p.m. | 28 January, 2004

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today's trainin was cancelled! again! yayy.. thats like 2 weeks in a row that trainin's cancelled. hiakshiaks.. but im gonna have trainin tmr. there goes the plans that me and Bi made. sighss. i hate it when this happens. its either me or him. this time its me, i guess i know how he feels. which is like totally sucky. haiz.. Bi, i'm really sorry. wonder if u'll see this. ):

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:26 p.m. | 27 January, 2004

all my only dreams.
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shall blog a very short entry today. had PE just now. was hopin it would rain so that we'll just have physical conditionin in the hall. time pass by faster that way. but it didn't happened. actually, it rained practically the whole day today.. but too bad.. the period where i had my PE, the rain just seemed to stop. oh well. we still did all those push ups, sit ups and stuff in the hall, after that we had to run 2 rounds on the track, then back to the hall, did all the stuffs again, then back to the track. ran one round. woohoo~ after we came back we felt so aliveee. riigghtt.

anyways, had econs test in the mornin. since Mr Pillai didn't come, he decided to give us a test. and guess what.. on Sat, i realised that i lost all of my past year's econs notes. how great right. im not sure whether i misplaced it anot. i mean, im like such a messy person. but even if i misplaced it, it'll still be somewhere in my messy room, beneath the pile of books and files at one corner. i digged and searched but still cant find. my mom helped me too, but still. haii. should really try to put my stuff properly next time. i have myself to blame. oh well. gonna borrow the notes from Ain and i think im just gonna send the notes for bindin. much easier that way. Thanks alot ya, Ain! (:

wokays.. this doesn't seem like a short entry after all. gonna do my assignments now. nytes peeps! even tho its waayy too early. hehee.

Filzah let me listen to one song in her mp3 playa today. such a sweet song. sighs..

All My Only Dreams (:

Every night I pray, I'll have you here someday.

I'll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might.

That when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.

If I could only have one wish you'd be the girl whose lips I'd kiss

All my only dreams.

And when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.

If I could have just one request, stay with me girl I confess.

All my only dreams.

Any waking hour it seems, I only have you in my dreams

So every night I pray, I'll have you here one day.

I'll count the stars tonight, and hope with all my might.

That when I close my eyes, you'll be right by my side.

If I could have just one request, stay with me girl I confess.

All my only dreams.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
7:16 p.m. | 26 January, 2004

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eurgh.. i really hate this shit. everytime smth is like solved, another damn thing have to happen. sighs. what does this mean? i feel so.. sick.

cant take it liao. whatever happens, happens.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:00 p.m. | 25 January, 2004

orbit.
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yawnn. such a gloomy day today. anyways, today's first entry was like soo early in the mornin. hahaha.. guess i was too pissed to get back to sleep. didnt get back to sleep in the end. so after that went to watch tv. den fell asleep on the couch. hiakshiaks.. in the end i only ended up bathin at 9 plus. or is it 10? dunno laa. all i noe is, after i bathed, my mom just came back frm the market and brought back breakfast. talk abt perfect timin.

then went to accompany her to Giant to do grocery shoppin. bought more supplies of energy bars. hahaha. then went to Daiso. that 2 dollar shop. damn. bought a lot of stuff. fabric paints.. some add-ons to my organizer.. dunno wat else la. my mom lah.. she walk here and there.. oh, we even bought this wooden thingy that can hang one.. she ask me to make a toilet sign for our new house. looks like my designin skills are very much appreciated. righhtt. not that im much of an artist anyways. hahaha..

then we realised that we're late in pickin my bro up frm his religious class. hehe. oh, did i mention that before we went to Daiso, we went to this baby shop where they sell all the baby stuffs (erh.. like duh rite?). actually it wasnt planned at all.. we just went in and then we ended up buyin clothes for Insyirah. hahaha. and you know what? all the clothes there are like soo cutee. the dresses, shirts, skirts all. soo puny and sweeeet. (: really. sighs. fancy me obsessin over baby clothes. gee.

can't believe there's only 1 day left to this cny holiday. like soo fast. tmr's sunday already. gee.. shall go bathe now.

addikted to Jay Zhou's Gui Ji. all cos of Bi. he keeps singin that song.

ooh. btw, i changed the blog pic. the kid is just so adorable. my pic with Bi will be back up soon tho. somewhere.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
6:10 p.m. | 24 January, 2004

eurgh.
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i dun understand why he has to be so oblivious to the fact that she is downright flirtin with him. cant he see? doesn't he get it? how obvious does he wants her to be until he finally gets it. i've never seen a girl like her. first look, so innocent, so nice. why? cos she's always damn freakin smilin like 24/7. oh. but like what he says, behind her smile. there's sadness. rightt. so she's the pitiful one now.

if even other ppl can see them bein so close and everythin, isnt it like obvious enuff already? when she told him that its lucky that he retained or else she wouldn't haf met him, isnt it obvious enuff already? when she can even put her head on his back and hold him even tho IM THERE isnt it obvious enuff already? even if i have a close guy fren, i wouldnt stupidly do that in front of my boyfriend. oh. but the fact is, i don't. so he wouldnt understand. would he? no. he doesnt.

all he does is nothin. just continue on lettin her do all this stuff. and what can i do? nothin. just stand one side and see her doin all this. frustration. thats what fillin inside me now. it doesn't help if we talk. we'll just end up arguin. and then it'll end. AND then it'll have to happen again. most of the time it'll be becos of my insecurities. but how can i not feel that way. lookin at them bein so close together sucks. i guess its worse when im not around. and the memory of that past incident is still hauntin me. sort of. i mean, it just adds up to all the insecurities.

i just totally dislike her. ferk.. i'll just try to go back to sleep.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
7:37 a.m. | 24 January, 2004

rainy day
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went to my new house yest. my room's painted. at last. and its pink! hmm.. soo doll like. gawd. my sis said it looks too bright. like.. u see only eyes pain. hahaha. who cares lah. its pink! my mom said its nice. (: im like.. so totally cant wait to shift. actually the house is already completed 'cept for some minor stuffs. but u noe what, we havent even pack a single damn thin in our current house. hahahaha. i dunno laa.. i just feel like there's so much stuff to pack. i dunno where to start. and i feel sad abt shiftin house too. i mean, come to think abt it, our current house is like soo.. comfortable. i mean, its near my school, its like there's so many memories here. the nature reserve.. the slope. ahh.. *sheds tears* im really goin to miss my current house.

just now Mizi asked me out to watch Last Samurai with him. but i was too lazy to go. the movie starts at 9.00. ahh.. i'd rather stay at home and watch tv. sighs.. dunno wat else to blog.

for now, im totally addikted to 3 doors down-here without you.

Boy Next Door - Your ideal guy is the brotherly and
huggable boy next door. He's always around,
knows you better than anyone, and loves to
cuddle. He's not neccessarily attractive to
most, but something about him makes him
charming and adorable in your eyes. Turn ons: One word - cute. He gets you teddy bears
and kisses your forehead, loves hand holding
and telling you that he loves you. Turn offs: He'll screw up somewhere down the line -
but we all make mistakes. Forgive him, because
all he can do is learn from it and love you all
the more!

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_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
6:38 p.m. | 23 January, 2004

cheaper by da dozeennn
plain.simple.ordinary

weee~ had a fun tym yesterday night. watchin Cheaper by the Dozen, it was like, laughter allll thee wayyy. my mom kept laughin, my sis kept laughin, as in really loud kinda laughter, but i guess everyone else around was laughin so we didnt get shouted at or anythin. hahaha.

anyways, town was so totally not crowded yesterday. it was like practically filled with malays.. minahs and mats. gee.. and then on the way home, my mom didnt wanna go by the shortest route. she said this, "lets walk around, see all the minahs and mats." gee.. so we did. we were eatin ice-cream and walked all the way back to the carpark. oh, and did i mention that almost ALL of the shops there are closed. and to think i was soo totally hopin to do some shoppin, so totally engrossed.. that i TOTALLY forgot that durin CNY, all shops are closed. all shoppin ctrs closes at 5. ahh.. there goes my happy house watch. i guess i'll get it another day or wat.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:53 a.m. | 22 January, 2004

-
plain.simple.ordinary

just gott back. today sch ended ard 9 plus. the CNY concert was hmm.. okayy. at some parts it was rather amusing. durin the chinese dance, one of the dancers' red cloth thingy got disattached frm the stick. and then after that everyone started clappin.. and she had to dance with just the stick and no red color cloth flyin ard. hiakshiaks.. there were some other screw-ups also. oh well. shit happens, i guess.

later we're gonna watch Cheaper by the Dozen. waitin for Eqah to come back home. im like so bored. i wanna ask my mom to go buy some stuffs. Happy House watch. *squeals* Bi just told me smth abt that sort of made me resent that brand.. but hecks. who cares.. i hate kunci.

hopefully town wouldnt be so crowded later. ahh.. dunno wat else to blog dy. hmm..

You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

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_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
4:31 p.m. | 21 January, 2004

-
plain.simple.ordinary

*yawwwnss* today's trg was cancelled. like.. super yay!! i dun haf mood for trg anyways. tmr im plannin to watch Mona Lisa smile with Bi. and guess wat, my mom asked me whether i wanna watch 'Cheaper by the Dozen' tmr. arghhss. i've already watched it lors. but nvm.. i tink i wud wanna watch it agen. anyways, its not my money.. =x so i told her can.. but watch at night lah. betta.. town is gonna be so crowded tmr in da aftnoon. i mean, all the skools are havin half-day. so wat do u expect. im sure loads of peeps r gonna flock to town.

oh well.. mabbe can pyscho her to buy the Happy House watch fer me. i really like the watch.. its just soo.. hmm.. cutee! dunno y im into Happy House stuffs now. muz be becos of my sis. (= so cutee. sighs..

just now after sch we had this entrepreneurship talk. soo totally borrriingg. i dont intend to get myself involved with much activites. dunno laa.. i guess i just wanna concentrate on my studies for now. i mean, hmm.. mabbe all this business stuffs can wait till im older or what. my number one aim now is to get into a university. no matter what.. die die also must get in. with just an 'A' level cert, there's nothin much u can do. so if i dun enter a uni.. thats it.

dreamin of the Happy House watch..

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
7:15 p.m. | 20 January, 2004

-
plain.simple.ordinary

Saturday: went to sci ctr, didn't know that most of the time we had there was free.. as in we cud walked anywhere we want to. had fun, some of the stuffs shown were interestin. then in the aftnoon we went to Kallang and did the dragonboat thingy. loads of pretty girls. hahaa. canoeists lah.. wat do u expect. some of the guys were oglin at them, especially when the girls did pull-ups. the guys' version. issh..

anyways, while dragonboatin, we saw a pig's leg. it floated in the river. wth?!?! damn digustin.. felt like pukin at that time. i even almost lost my appetite.. i was damn hungry at that time okays.. then Bi came. didnt noe he was goin to reach so early. then Ms Tan and Ms Watee talked to him. i thought he was goin to get scolded or smth.. (but then again, why would they scold him?) actually they just chatted with him. oh well.. wished he was there. sighs.. stupid principal. oh.. and i feel bad abt not sendin Obek off.. sighs.. i hope they'll be safe and sound at Mecca.

Sunday: had to reach Netball Ctr by 7.15. met Ain at the bustop outside lucky plaza at 6.45. reached there ard 6.30. freakin dark.. and saw 2 girls at the bustop. they were also goin for the carnival. was damn sleepy all the way. i mean, who wouldnt?? for 3 days straight i was practically occupied. anyways, the games sucked. =/ no point talkin abt it. hmm. nothin much to elaborate on sunday tho.

today.. school seems hectic. dunno why. wasn't lookin forward to P.E at all. and guess what, it rained durin GP! its like.. God totally answered our prayers. the rain lasted all the way till.. hmm. now? im not sure whether its still rainin outside. anyways, had a great time at the hall. physical conditionin in the hall is definitely much more fun than bein outside at the track/bball court. totally..

shall stop 'ere.. till then, will blog soon. (=

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
10:47 p.m. | 19 January, 2004

titleless.
plain.simple.ordinary

am still bloggin.. even tho its like already so late. cant sleep. was talkin to Bi on the fone and then he had to put down. said he'll call back later. he just called. like a few mins ago. mom made noise so cant use the fone. =/

had the sports team wrkshop tday. boriinggg. and the shirt sucks. seriously. was supposed to get an 'M' size, i ordered 'M'! but got 'L'. oh well.. the ppl frm bartley campus came too. okayy lah.. they all. but some were quiet. dunno y. mabbe cos majority of us were frm tt. oh well. anyways, the games played are like.. umms.. so-so lah. nothin great. heard frm some ppl dat last yr's one was betta. -.-

tmr we;re goin to science ctr for learnin journey. and then we're gonna do dragonboat. (= hopefully tmr's activity, or shud i say today since its already 12++ am.. is gona be much more fun. still, it'll be much more fun if Bi was there. damn that mrs ong hafta ban the rugby guys frm goin. she's such an unreasonable freak.. cant she like punish them in other ways or smth. gee.

i just miss him.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
12:17 a.m. | 17 January, 2004

-
plain.simple.ordinary

havent been updatin. oops. anyways, we had 2 periods of P.E today. fun fun. not bad lah. we had pre-napfa. ran 2.4 and did some stations. my 2.4 timin sucks.. got 15.22. arghsss. aimin for a 13 at least. today's pe didnt feel like 2 periods. mabbe cos Watee's the one that took us. yeaa, she's fun. okok.. enuff abt P.E. today's lessons were quite borin. hmm.. my head kept droopin durin maths. and econs was like.. soo.. -.- Mr Pillai kept on dronin on and on and on..

the funniest thing that happened today was durin lunch. Bi was helpin me carry my plate, and his too. then Ms Watee saw and she was like teasin him and then she saw me and she shouted my name and asked me to share my food with him next time. quite embarassin lah. i didn't know that Ms Watee knew about us. plus there were other teachers there. i tink most of our teachers noe abt us already. gee.

ohh! and i met Sha today! like face-to-face. finally. and i didnt even realise she was beside me until Bi told me. god.. im such a doofus. i just had P.E and was on the way back to class. and she was goin for MT class. hahaha.

gonna end here for now. will blog again soon! (=

cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed

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_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
4:22 p.m. | 15 January, 2004

-
plain.simple.ordinary

my love for you will never end;
you'll always be a part of me;
as long as time keeps on passin by;
you'll always be my baby boy//

lalala.. just finished my karangan. like finally. was plannin to do it on sat night but in the end, i only wrote a few lines. hahah. Yazid told us that those who didn't do must stay back after school and pass up today. what da.. school ends at 5.15 today, and he expects us to stay back. haii. i did quite abit durin the lesson itself, even tho actually we're not supposed to do it. oh well. then Darli and Ain negotiated with him to let us pass up tmr. in the end he told us all to find him after school if we want to pass up tmr. so after pe, we went to find him and after some negotiation, we were told that we can pass up tmr. like, yay!

nothin much happened in school today. 'cept that i just realised my class has such a nice environment. especially durin breaks, the wind.. phwoaar. really nice. it can like, rock u to sleep. serious. i always feel like fallin asleep, especially in the afternoon. okayy.. at some points of time, i did fell asleep lah. =x

i met Sha today too. like, finally! hahah. she was standin outside the AVA and i was downstairs walkin towards Bi's class. i was lookin up and then i saw this familiar face and realised it was Sha, and then luckily she saw me too and we waved. hahaha.

waitin for Bi's call now. haiz. i tink he's still havin dikir practice. wonder whether it ended already. he nv msg so i guess, it havent end yet. but god.. just look at the time. gee. whatever it is, i'll still wait. no matter how sleepy and tired i am.

_finally! Bi just msg. at last. he's on the way home liao. reachin soon. =))

Tarzan!

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erh?! TARZAN?! ahh.. wokayyss. oh well. gee. =/

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
10:18 p.m. | 12 January, 2004

persevere on.
plain.simple.ordinary

catch a fallin' star
and put it in your pocket,
never let it fade away;

this is goin to sound lame but i miss year 2003. sighh. dunno why. i guess maybe i didnt get a good headstart for the new year. now's like what? 10 Jan. and im feelin like this. sheesh. dunno laa. went for dental appt this mornin. e dentist said i dun hafta wear da retainers anymore, 'cept for when im sleepin at night. so im like s'posed to be happy. ahh.. well. not really. cos in da end she broke out da good news to me. im gonna haf a minor op. for my wisdom tooth! 2 somemore. oh god. its like gonna be so damn freakin pain. the op's gonna be durin the march hols. he said he's gonna take out 2 at one go. *faints*

then met my bro outside Paragon. me, mom, sis, bro went to Taka to eat breakfast at macs. guess who i met there. Mrs Arul! gee. it was like so freakin funny cos she was beside me and starin into the promotion thingy (u noe now they're sellin all those fishy fishy meals. some kind of promotion lah. got double fillet-o-fish..etc) yeaa. then i was like, "Mrs Arul?! What are u doin?? You scared me you know." but i think i was the one that scared her lah.. cos she looked kinda shocked. hahaha. then she said she was just lookin at the thing very closely cos she cant see properly. oh well. then we went in the shoppin centre, and my mom was lookin at this one vacuum cleaner (heck. whatever the thing is.) Mrs Arul was lookin at it too. felt so weird. *tsk tsk* oh, and i saw her hubby too. he looks.. ermm... small? hmm.. dunno whether thats the right word for him. hahah. anyways, she's on MC. YP told me that she was hospitalised. oh well.

then, went to send my sibs off to religious class, b4 that went to my aunt's house but i went home instead. didn't bother to wait for my mom to send me. took the bus. its faster. i wanted to talk to Bi on the fone anyways. so i did. we talked all the way till i reached home. somehow it made the journey much shorter.

so many hmwrk to finish up today. no matter wat, i have to finish up my hmwrk for today cos im gonna be out the whole day tmr cos of da daisy tan carnival thingy. sigghh. netball. netball. NETBALL! arghss. oh, and i must totally remember to call the edusave fund thingy. was supposed to give Mdm Za the balance value of my edusave acc on Friday but i forgot to call. then Dib told me that the call service is like always down. waddahell. so yea. must call.

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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okayy. 16. hmm.. not dat bad lah.

continued a few hrs later

sleep sleep. i feel sleepy. damn. but i still have lots of hmwrk to finish. and im still bloggin. heh. i tink i have one karangan to do. im not sure whether dat Yazid wants us to pass up by monday. freaak laa. why must i have him as my malay teacher? gawd. aarrghhsss. Fil just msg. we hafta pass up the karangan by monday. fisshh!! betta go do now. =/

gave up on doin my karangan. i only wrote a few lines of the intro and thats it. i just cant think anymore. maybe cos b4 i actually looked into doin my karangan, i did my maths assg and tutorial. managed to complete my assg. as for tutorial. i left some bits here and there. the TYS qns are tough.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
2:50 p.m. | 10 January, 2004

love maths. ?!
plain.simple.ordinary

its been 2 days since i last blog. just 2 days, and so many things happened. shall not elaborate further. sigghh. all i know is i feel so down and stressed. with schoolwork and evrythin. school has barely started and there's already so much stuff to be done and this goes to show how little time there is. *screeeaamss* stress stress.

today there was trg. and guess what. team 2's gonna play for Daisy Tan carnival. dat happens to fall on a sunday. so many stuff.. its just the first week, goin on to 2nd week.. then there's the national 'A's. i don't think im gonna make it for the selections. there's soo many other better players. but i dont mind not playin for dat cos hmm.. i dunno laa. im not good enuff anyways, and im so not ready or prepared to play also. i mean, i just started playin netball like when? .. april/may last yr? around there.

i think im gonna do some changes to the layout now. feelin bored. =/

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
8:07 p.m. | 09 January, 2004

fishh.
plain.simple.ordinary

6 months. half a year. apprx 182 days.. sigghh. back home. today sch ended at 1.45. stayed around in sch and ate lunch with Bi before he takes his GP common test. gave him the test tube thingy. must thank YP for bein able to help me get it on time. thanks alot yea. i owe u one.=)

i guess the email that i posted in my previous entry is really meaningful. its an article actually. really.. the person that wrote it really thinks alot. i wish i had a mind like that. its so.. philosophical. no mood to really blog today. gonna end here.

You represent... naivete. So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.

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naive?!?!!?!?! *faints* whats up with blogspot nowadays? the site seems to be down. and i always tot dat i got the wrong webby. gee. blog blog blog. sigghh. dunno whats wrong with my stomach. since yesterday, its been feelin weird. i feel like as if im havin diarrhoea but then again.. i dont always like have to go to the toilet everytime. and sometimes, i feel like vomittin. it all started after i drank the strawberry milk yesterday. arghh. maybe it has already expired. god.. eh, but im still alive. hahah. the worst thing is that, when i get the stomachaches, its really dammnnn can't tahan one.. sigghh. hope it gets better by tomorrow.

tmr first 2 periods is PE. and dunno why but im not dreadin it. for the first time, izzah's not dreadin PE. can u believe it?!?! dunno laaa. somethin good must have come over me. maybe becos thursday is our so-called wonderful, best, marvelous, fantastic.. etc day. why? cos we have 2 periods of break. 1 and a half hours. yeaa. at first we thought there's some typo in the TT or what, so we asked Mr Pillai and he said its 2 periods of break. well, i lived in denial for awhile, but now i believe it. hahah.

today we picked out the class committee. Dib's our new class rep! Ian's the asst class rep and im like the welfare rep. still wonderin what im like supposed to do. hahaha. but luckily its not a tough job. im too blur sometimes to like do anythin. heh.

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
3:34 p.m. | 07 January, 2004

list.less
plain.simple.ordinary

i feel so tired. school ends at 5.15 today. and guess what? today was a much better day than friday. at least i was in a more happy mood. so anyways, tomorrow im gonna have this chem common test. arghs.. i thought ms chan would have forgotten all about it.. yeaah right. in my dreams. she neva forgets this kind of stuff. i guess im not gonna blog so much today. my eyes are in pain and i should really get started with my studyin for tomorrow. so till then. this is prolly one of my shortest entry ever. hahaha. whatever..=/

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
6:51 p.m. | 05 January, 2004

wowee~
plain.simple.ordinary

testing testing.. hope this thing works. im changin the layout.

continued at 8.57 p.m

just came back. went out with mom and bro. first went to JE library and then we realised that its closed for upgradin. so went to West Mall instead. bro really had to return his library books cos its overdue. hahaa. all my fault lah, actually. then we went to BW to get my bro's school shorts. again!. at that time i was already soo freakin hungry. so we bought some food back home.

See what amusement park ride you are.

ahh... okayy. so im a kiddieee ride. oh well. hahah.

got this from an email. i think its really really worth reading. so pls take ur time.

continued at 10.08 p.m

great. my whole family is worried to their asses now. Eqah's out for her fren's birthday thingy and she's still not back yet. we all tried callin and the worst thing is.. her hp's switched off. waddahell?!?! doesn't she know how to at least on it?okayy, so maybe her batt's flat, can't she at least borrow her fren's fone or what?! or find a phonebooth or somethin. sometimes i really really don't get her. gee. its already 10 plus now and there's still no news of her. so i guess im gonna stay worried like this till she calls. okayy. she just called my mom. told us that her hp low batt. such a sick thing to hear at this point of time. oh well. at least i know she's safe and sound. so im grateful now. ahh.. thank god!!

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
5:13 p.m. | 03 January, 2004

saturrrday
plain.simple.ordinary

changed to somethin simple. hahaha. kinda sick and tired of all the complicated and colourful designs so here's the _ordinary. today's maths ca was a total.. failure. i'm so gonna flunk this test. actually the questions are kinda simple, but the fact is, i didn't study well. so im prepared to get my results. oh yea.. managed to go sch with Bi in the mornin. but i was really early. reached sch around 6.50. and my paper only starts at 8. well, it gave me time to study.

anyways, after the ca, i went home. i was in my sis' room and then YP msged me. asked me to accompany her go sch. just to see the orientation thingy. so i thought, well.. okayy. then maybe i can see Bi too or what. when we reached, we walked towards the library, and then i saw Bi and his OG. then he got to tell them all that i'm Izzah. yeaa.. okayy. what da. i8 was kind of embarassed. luckily YP was there.

so..the both of us pretty much hang around in sch for the rest of the time. watched the telematch and all. thats when i got a closer look of the 3 mths people. cant believe i was one of them exactly a year ago. how time flies..

_the UNsophisticated
here without you.
4:55 p.m. | 03 January, 2004

love | him